There Has To Be More To Life

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Friday, November 03, 2017

I know what you are all thinking. 

"Does this girl ever stop moaning about her life?"

And the answer is no, and it's my blog and I can do what I like so there. 

I'm sorry, I know it's boring and I know it's lame but I treat this as my outlet for my thoughts and feelings. I tend to jot all my blog ideas down when I am at work and hating life, so if there is a depressed tone to a lot of what I write that would be why. 

Anyway, today as I scrolled through Instagram, envious of my feed, I got to thinking. This can't be it. This can't be all there is to life. There are people out there living every day as their best day, and I am here not being able to decipher between weekdays because they're all the fucking same. 

I work 9-6, Monday - Friday staring at a computer screen all day long. I do the same thing day in, day out, I work with people who outside of the office I wouldn't dream of spending time with, and I generally just sit there hating every moment, except for lunch. 

I got a full time job pretty much as soon as I left school, which as you can imagine did wonders for my social life. When all my friends were at Uni, I was out making money and I kind of have nothing to show for it. 

I find it physically impossible to arrange things when I spend so much time working. When I get home I am mentally and physically exhausted, that going out with my friends just seems like pure hell. Especially when they are at completely different stages in their lives. I am at a stage now where I am looking to buy a house and settle down etc. 

A lot of my friends either live far out or are still studying, which just makes it so much harder to try and arrange plans. Everyone has their own schedules and it's almost impossible to pin you all down to one day.

I guess my point is, why is it like this? I mean I know why, because you gotta work to make a living. But it's so hard when you literally prioritise your shit job over your loved ones. 

Someone once said to me "you work to live, not live to work" and that sticks with me everyday. I know one day I won't be here, and I will be happy with everything I do in life, but that just seems so far away, it's hard to see the finish line. 

I am going to start to make an effort for the more important things in life, because I know this isn't it. I need to start living and making  real memories. Not just sit in a dingy office all day dealing with shitty clients. 

Anywaaay, rant over for now.

Jumper - Primark, Trousers - Marks&Spencers, Shoes - Miss Selfridge

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